Tuesday, August 26, 2008

It's Going to Be a GREAT Fall!

Hello Team,
Back from my IVF consult. Okay, I cried. My husband and I almost fell off our chairs when we found out the cost...drum roll please...$16k including meds. We have no ins. coverage for IF.

The nurse could not have been sweeter!! She went through everything and then asked me what day my last period was. Aug 5. What? Yikes, my symptoms COULD be implantation. She totally got my hopes up. spotting, sore boobs, lower back pain. Hopes Up. My husband finally said we have to stop talking about it; in case we jinx ourselves. Okay, still hopes up. spotting!!!

Anyhow, IVF is planned for November. I am doing ONE MORE Clomid cycle with a Day 12 u/s to see what side I am ovulating on.

Deep breath! Hopes up! Saving my pennies. ;)

Monday, August 25, 2008

2WW...everything is a symptom

I am in the dreaded 2WW and feeling every bit of it. My boobs are super sore and have a few other little potential symptoms. It's either I am pregnant or getting my period super early.
I feel like I am trying to find symptoms...it's like looking for a glimmer of hope.

Tomorrow my husband and I are going for our IVF consulattion...I am nervous and excited.


Tuesday, August 19, 2008

2WW and a missed IUI

I guess it was not meant to be. My husband and I could not get it together to do the IUI, but double dose of clomid and a lot of fun sex...perhaps a baby we made?

2WW...on to the acupuncture, back in the pool, and no caffeine.

My prayer remains the same. Please God, let me get pregnant this month and have a baby. And a whole slew of promises to be a better wife, employee, person......

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Today, I am better

I knew I would feel better today, but what a yesterday I had.

So, get the period, meet with my Doc. about IVF, and order $12,000 worth of kitchen remodeling stuff. oi! Too much, but sometimes we need to put one foot in front of the other!

Dr. S. , my husband and I had a talk yesterday. I have decided to move forward with IVF AFTER one more cycle of clomid...yes, I love the torture. My Dr. is so no-nonsense....he's like "what's one more month?" I actually was pissed he said that; until I wasn't...what is one more month? We start IVF at the end of September if the round of clomid does not work. I am excited and scared about everything. The Dr. was not overly hopeful and maybe that's his job is to be realistic, but with my circumstances there is a 30% it's going to work.

I was pleasantly surprised at the cost(remember no ins. coverage) it's ONLY going to be $10-12k...I had it in my mind that it was going to be $25k. Where I got that I have no idea. I am hoping to hook up with some donated drugs and overall just get the show on the road. I am trying to keep myself in the now! And now the "ifs" of IF. I am continuing with my accupuncture and need to get myself back in the pool.

Our kitchen is going to be gorgeous. We are such glutens for punishment. Anyone else doing IVF and a kitchen remodel?

Thank you to everyone who leaves me such nice comments. It really helps.


Tuesday, August 5, 2008

In The Pit....

..of despair. Yes, I got my period this morning. AFTER, I had a HUGE fight with my husband about our upcoming kitchen renovation. Um, yeah. Nice way to start the morning.

I actually let myself go down the positive path because my period was 2 days late and I am NEVER late. I imagined myself telling my husband, our parents..our friends. I woke up this morning with no period and took a pg test. Negative. Hmm, I wondered to myself...maybe it's broken. No, I am broken.

Tomorrow, I will feel better. Today, I don't.