Thursday, March 6, 2008

Cysts, scaring and a big old fat why me???

I just got off the phone with my Dr. I had a MRI on Monday to figure out what to do with my pesky cyst on my right ovary. As a bit of history, the cyst is why I have not started clomid for the last 6 months. Anyhooo, I have to have surgery at the end of the month to suck that sucker out. Very easy and out patient.

My conversation with Dr. S. did not go as planned. My hope would be that he would say once we get that out you will FOR SURE get pregnant. He did not say that...he said there is a good chance, but with all the scaring you may have to got for IVF.

Oh Lord, I was hoping to avoid IVF. Is is bad that I want that $$ for my new kitchen? Does that make me a bad almost mother?

So we decided that after the surgery we would meet in 3 weeks to discuss out next steps. I had a dream last night about "taking over a baby" from a bad mother. It was just like she was my own. Is it time to think about adoption?

I try not to wallow, but I would love to stand on a hill and shout...Why me?

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Don't Read Fertility Blogs!

Okay, so I am guilty..

I have spent the last 3 weeks reading fertility blogs. If you are trying to get pregnant I don't recommend it.

Here is what I came away with...
1. I know nothing about fertility treatments. I just show up and hope for the best
2. I don't understand any of the acronyms...I just figured out what RE meant.
3. Women who have fertility problems and get pregnant should not complain about morning sickness. It's really annoying
4. Fertility issues are sad.

So, I have banned myself from reading most of them. I am reading about a woman who just gave birth to twins and one was still born. I pray for her and the baby.

Good luck to all of us.

Monday, March 3, 2008

Starting Now!

This is my first post on my first blog! Don't judge by spelling mistakes or grammatical errors....I am moving fast.

I am starting this blog to help myself. I need a place to dump all of my feelings about my fertility issues. So here it goes.....

My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for 1 1/2 years. I have had all the tests and so has he. There is "no reason" why we should not be getting pregnant...except...I have a huge cyst on my right ovary. In a few weeks, I will have this removed. Thank God! I am sick of talking about it, seeing it on my Day 3 utlrasounds, and wondering if that is the reason.

Thanks for reading. I plan to post regularly!!!